Take me home...

Spoiler alert: If for some reason you read this stuff and think I am a mature and wise person who has it all together then you should probably not read this one.

Last night I didn't sleep well. This is not unusual but my night was filled with restless sleep and troubled dreams all of which seemed to feature trying to get somewhere and being foiled in the attempt.

On the way to the top of Tomaree Head

When morning came I woke not only with tousled hair but with my brain scrambled and a feeling of sadness. Why? We are on a lovely holiday and enjoying slow starts (well I am; he gets up and goes for a walk and comes back with photos to show me) we've taken leisurely walks and some not so leisurely We've enjoyed time together and plenty of books to read. And did I mention the great bargains at Vinnies. The sign said Winter Stock Clearance. $2. When I asked which were the winter items I was told 'Everything'. Wow so the sparkly jeans (yes, that makes three pairs now) were $2 not $7. And I could have bought a  red handbag identical to the one I was carrying except minus the frayed handle. I didn't although I did buy another black one  and we couldn't resist a possible substitute for the old Urnie at church.
And we've had interesting meals - craving some good Riverland pumpkin - with DB committed to eating the whole 8 pack of ice creams that were such a bargain.
But the shaky feeling comes. The feeling that says all is not right with the world and I'd rather not get out of bed today. Is it still concern about Millie cat? Is she OK? Or about those at home who are battling brain tumors or facing other life challenges? Or missing the singing fun with Sing Australia Riverland when there is so much to get ready for performances coming up?
Or am I just a wuss? Too wrapped up in myself, too set in my ways? Aching for the familiar and for all to be right with the world. I just want to go home...

PS As is the way of these things, I did get up and things did get better after a wobbly start. The sun shone a little through the clouds and so the day went...